Hang on Shannon! You already know enough about depression to know you can’t just snap yourself out of it.
I’m an expert on depression because I’m old and I’ve suffered it to one extent or the other all my life. I’m glad you’re going back to therapy and as you know, you may need medicine. I can never believe therapy will help and usually enter it uncooperative and resentful. But somehow it always does after awhile and each time I come back better, wiser, more in control.
That chemical juice that gets screwed up and causes us to be lethargic, unmotivated, and unable to take care of basic household stuff is not something we can will away.
Love yourself and your daughter enough to get help. Your depression is not a personal failing, it’s an illness.
You’re a prolific writer and you’re still producing. Give yourself credit! Your honesty is remarkable. I’m being honest when I say it is not your fault you’re depressed. It’s an illness. Be sweet to yourself!
I always enjoy your work and I’m sorry you’re Facing this bout of depression alone. Therapy will help, even when we don’t believe it can (I know you know that). Depression is a horrible, potentially life-endangering and often chronic disease. But you know that, the illness is just blinding you with hopelessness. It sucks. You know what to do. (((Hugs))))